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Random odd thought.... [24 Nov 2003|10:27pm] What if light traveled completely around the universe from us, and eventually....billions and billions of years later, we could see what we were doing billions and billions of years before? Hrrmmm....I might have to use this for a short story....:) 1 comment|post comment

[17 Nov 2003|09:44pm] [ mood | weird ] I have another reason to hate football, but I'm not going to go into it, because it'll just piss me off more....again....and it happened on Sat....mrrgle. Anyway....sort of getting caught up in schoolworkness. Getting there, getting there, getting there....umm....maybe I have gone crazy...it's just been one of those semesters.... Have my Geology test in lecture tomorrow, and the lab final the day after, and the notebook due soonishly, and then the last Astronomy test. Not thinking I'm going to have a problem with any of that, though. Am worried about the Mechanics.....wait...no, I'm not. :) Just don't feel like doing anything else for it if I'm not going to get anywhere with it. And Kai is sitting on my cross stitch...well...I guess that means it's time to pull out the Geology notes....off to study!! post comment

[12 Nov 2003|07:19pm] [ mood | accomplished ] Yay! I got stuff done today! I even managed to get through the stupid UT parking services to get a special permit to park on campus on a game day!! :) This is a very very happy thing, because I have to go on a field trip. They supposedly will have a permit for me, so I have to go by parking services tomorrow. But as far as anyone knows, they've not heard of anyone getting a permit for academic reasons for a game day....:) I feel so special! Today was our last Geology lab, though we have a final in our lab class, but it shouldn't be too hard. I also found out that there isn't a final in Astronomy! So, I only have two finals. One I care about, but will be easy, and one I don't care about at all, because there's no way I can pass it any way I look at it....*sigh* But I'm not stressing over it...I'll just retake the class later. :) post comment

[11 Nov 2003|03:48pm] I was doing really well, but I really freaking hate my electronics lab group. Stupid people they are. I mean I had a really good idea....suggested it, and they decided against it, because it was "too difficult", when in fact any way you look at it, it was easier. Really, I don't have that many good ideas in electronics. I barely understand what's going on....and when I do, they should pay attention! They really should! But no. The other person has to always be right, and they have to make certain that I know that anything I'm doing really has no bearing at all on the actual experiment....mrrgle....*hateses People muchly* Oh, well....I'll go back to being apathetic again. In fact...I think I'll go do my Astro reading, and the last two chapters of Geology....and ignore everything else. Mechanics sucks, and there's no way I'm going to pass the test even if I study, so I don't see any point in trying, or stessing over it anymore, and I'm either going to have a B+ or an A- in Electronics, whether I read the book or not, so it doesn't really matter, either....but I do need to do the lab report.... As for life? Well....it doesn't really exist beyond school....another reason I hate Knoxville. So need to get out of here....blarg..... TO-Do List Geology chp 16 Geology chp. 23 Astronomy chp. 10 Astronomy chp. 11 Astronomy chp. 12 Astronomy chp. 13 Astronomy chp. 14 Astronomy chp. 15 Electronics lab report Electronics Notebook 1 comment|post comment

Thoughts on Astronomy. [03 Nov 2003|01:22pm] I'm so horribly odd....I now have a couple of new theories. Likely they'll eventually be proven wrong, or already have been. Likely, I'll prove them wrong to myself as I learn more...but...just in case, a new (or composite) scientific hypothesis... Venus's atmosphere is composed of 95.6% carbon dioxide, as well as 3.5% nitrogen, and traces of numerous other gases (water vapor, carbon monoxied, sulfur dioxide, and argon.) Now...as different as the atmosphere is from our own, it is in some way still quite similar. Is it possible that life once existed, and was wiped out by the strong greenhouse effect on Venus? Or maybe, that we can do something, (like add plants) and turn the planet into something a little more Earth like? What would happen if we put air cleaners there? :) Or kudzu! Nothing kills kudzu! (Ok, I'm getting really silly now, but it is an interesting thought! :) ) Second theory: how was our moon created? The currently favored theory is that Earth was struck by a large Mars sized object, and the Moon was created from the debris from the collision. The moon is made of lighter materials...it has very little of the heavy metals that make up Earth's core. In fact, it's made of material very much like Earth's mantle....That's all well and good, then....but here's another interesting fact: Mercury is made of heavier material...like Earth's core, with very little traces of the lighter materials. Could whatever hit Earth have left it's mantle behind, and turned it's core into Mercury? There's also a big collisional gash on the side of Mars....and there was something somewhere about a possible gash sort of thing on Venus as well. I will definitely have to look into this more.... post comment

[02 Nov 2003|03:11pm] [ mood | stressed ] Mew. That's all I have to say is mew. Things were going good for the week, until Friday. Mew. I hate money, and I hate the world. (Of course, this excludes the non-People that I love very much, who even if I don't talk to you that much, you know who you are. *much hugs to all of you*) So....I got a letter on Friday, which actually had to have arrived several days before, though it's a good thing I didn't get it then, because I would have failed to make it to all my classes last week. Stupid thing is from Financial Aid, and says that I have exceeded my loan limit. No body ever said that there was a limit on how much a person can take out as an undergraduate!! Nobody! Never said it at Beloit, never said it at UT! And suddenly, I've exceeded this limit that I didn't know existed! (This is on top of the three times I've sent in deferrment forms for the previous loans, and haven't heard anything, them still telling me that I owe them money...) And apparently, I now have to come up with $2400 before January, just to pay things off! Then I have to come up with another $2400 plus the amount for books, for the Spring semester! So, essentially, they randomly decided that I haven't paid tuition for this semester. Well, mom and I have discussed options. So, it's a little better now. I can switch to another loan that I have to pay interest back while I'm in school. (Which is what we're going to do for the moment, and find out how to work the interest out, hopefully it won't be that bad....I think we can swing $200 ish a semester....but I still have to figure out books...) Another option is getting a job again, but I can't do that and school full time, I've already proven that. If I'm not in school full time, I really do have to start paying back the other loans....which means needing more money, which means needing more work hours, which means, eventually dropping out, in a very slow way that I wouldn't be able to stand, because I can't stand to be in Knoxville that long. Another option is letting mom pay the way (which is also really out....I'm not letting her work 80 hrs. a week to pay for that....) And then there's the option of just dropping out, which would mean me packing up stuff here, and leaving for the Beloit area in Dec. Because there's no way I'm staying here if I'm not in school. Much hate for this place at the moment.... So....we're trying the interest paying option....but I can't get scholarships (nobody will give them to undergrads working on their second degree) and I can't do anything that will earn me any kind of decent income and the school thing at the same time. Mew. So....to top this all off, the unfinished half of my room hasn't been touched since before Sept. I can't do anything with it, because I don't know how or what needs to be done before the insulation can go up. I finally asked mom today if she could work on it, today, and she said she was planning to, but has now decided she doesn't feel like it. Not to mention that Mortir is supposed to do some electrical thing with it, and hasn't done that either. And it's not going to get done today, because he's asleep....again...and people will be here at 6, and it's 3 now. Mew. So frustrated!! That option of dropping out, and moving back with friends is looking more appealing....It's just got to be the time of year.... So...here's another idea. I could attempt to make enough time to do lots of sewing of small things, and clothes things, and try selling them at gatherings. Hmmm....I wonder how cloth runes would go over...and little tarot bags with small bits of embroidery, and maybe some actual clothing articles, in happy Period fashion. It might work...I certainly go to enough gatherings, and haven't felt much like participating in anything, due to some people's rudeness, and I might earn a bit of money. Another idea...and one, I might try to work on, but mom's cloak first.... Well, I think I need to add a couple things to the list of stuff to do for school, and hopefully I can stay motivated now....*hopes* To-Do List: Geology chp. 13 Geology chp. 14 Geology chp. 15 Geology chp. 16 Electronics chp. 4 Mechanics chp. 4 Astronomy chp. 9 Astronomy hmwk for Wed. Astronomy hmwk for Fri. Mechanics hmwk chp 4 read MatLab (yeah, right! Maybe I'll do this eventually) 1 comment|post comment

[27 Oct 2003|09:51pm] [ mood | Indescribably Unhappy ] [ music | Epicentre -- VNV Nation ] Blarg! So the gathering was good, and the gathering sucked at the same time. For the most part, people were rude and ungrateful. Sat. night I decided to go down to the drum circle, and the people playing couldn't keep a rhythm to save their lives! So, I started working the energy, and connecting in, weeding out the chaotic elements, to bring everything together. When they finally got a decent rhythm, after the same person had changed it a couple of times, I started playing the flute. A very short time after I started, the person decided to start up a chant, over the flute, that didn't go with anything else that was going on. So, I dropped the flute, and took up the chant....then in the middle of the chant, they changed the rhythm again! So, people lost the chant, too! Then the drummers caught the rhythm and went with it, until they were going really well, and the same stupid person changed the rhythm AGAIN!!! It sounded like a bunch of baby celts who'd just learned that beating on something makes a cool noise! Finally, after a long time of working the energy it got to the point where it was holding steady, and I got up to dance. Some stupid drunk guy decided that he could dance, too, and kept running into me, and almost falling into the fire. Then someone actually had the audacity to come up to me, while I'm dancing, and say that I'm doing it wrong! I'm supposed to continuously dance around in a circle, not stopping, even though I'm working the energy, and THAT'S NOT WHAT I NEEDED TO DO!!!! Grrr....yes, I'm pissed about it. I've been going to gatherings and dancing fires for the past 16 years!! Not just one a year, but often 3 to 7! And I am "not dancing the fire correctly"?!!! As if there's a "correct" way and a "wrong" way to do it?! It's BS!!! Mew.....ok....well.... Yes, I'm still angry about it, even days later. I'm even a little depressed. It bothers me that the group I call my family has degenerated into this. There was money and meds stolen from someone so the person had to leave. A vendor had stuff stolen, and people were just ungrateful for the work that so many of us put into the entire thing....and I felt the same about the Mabon gathering, though I thought it was just stress.....this might just be stress, too, and I'm very likely overreacting to it, but....it was just so hurtful! And very unlike what we've been working so hard for. Fortunately, Raven was there, with Patty and Cat, and Dean, Tony, and some other old friends, and their camp was way up on the top of the hill. Went up there, and hid for most of the time, because I just didn't want to deal with the horrible evil people who had decided to ruin our weekend with their presences....mew. I'm caught up for the week, though! Yay! This next list is all stuff not due until Wed. at the earliest, and some of it (like the Geology chps.) are for the rest of the semester! Happiness! Still a lot to do, but....it's bearable in the scheme of time. :) Geology chp. 12 Geology chp. 13 Geology chp. 14 Geology chp. 15 Geology chp. 16 Electronics chp. 3 Mechanics chp. 4 Astronomy chp. 8 Astronomy chp. 9 Mechanics Hmwk chp. 3 Astronomy Hmwk for Fri. Geology lab hmwk. Astronomy lab (read both) read MatLab (Again...yeah, right!) post comment

[20 Oct 2003|05:12pm] Well.....it's been busy. Went to class...got out for break, drove to Asheville for my Dr's apptmt, came back, got my driver's liscense switched over (which was a fiasco! Mew!) and went back out to Asheville. Went to the ashes scattering ceremony, and did a little bit of gaming...got to see Raven, Cat, Dean, and Patty. And I'm still not caught up. I still have one more chapter of Geology to read before my test tomorrow....mew. Well, here's the new list! Blarg.... Read Electronics chapter 2 Read Electronics chapter 3 Read Astronomy chapter 6 Read Astronomy chapter 7 Electroncis Lab report Read Geology chapter 20 Read Geology chapter 18 Mechanics hmwk set for chp.3 Read article for Astronomy Read MatLab guide. (yeah, right...) 2 comments|post comment

[10 Oct 2003|12:28pm] [ mood | productive ] So, I'm declared as a Geology major! Mostly....I think. I went to the Geology office, and they said they had no clue, that I needed to go talk to Arts and Sciences advising. So, I went down there, and they gave me a form, and filled it out, and I got an appointment set up with a Geology prof for advising. Then they told me to take the form to room 317 in the Geology building. But rm 317 in GSB is offices of graduate students, and they had no clue what to do with it. So, I went back to the Geology office (which is rm 306 GSB) and they had no clue what to do with it either....Finally, I happened to run into my Geology lab prof, and he said he would take care of it for me...So...as far as I know, I am now declared as a Geology major.... Oh, the joys of UT beauracracy! I'm taking this weekend to get caught up on everything. If nothing else, I need to at least have all the Geology chapters read, the lab report done, and the Astronomy homework. I think I'm going to start by finishing chapter 3 of the mechanics, though, since I'm more than half done with it. Should be a busy schoolwork weekend, but hopefully will make free time for break and the gathering, which are the next two weekends. I really hope everyone who has been planning on coming to Samhain can make it....mew....*hopes muchly* I do believe it is time for a new to-do list.... Read Geology chapter 2 Read Geology chapter 17 Read Geology chapter 21 Read Electronics chapter 2 Read Mechanics chapter 3 Read Astronomy chapter 5 Read Astronomy chapter 6 Electroncis Lab report Astronomy homework for Monday from internet. Astronomy homework from today (finish) Read MatLab guide. (yeah, right...) post comment

[05 Oct 2003|11:26pm] [ mood | curious ] Wow.....I'm sitting here reading my Geology book, and found out that Mortir's parents live in a high risk area for earthquakes.....mind you, this wouldn't have surprised me if they lived in the west, but....they live in Memphis, TN. Apparently, just north on the Arkansas side of the TN border is the highest risk area in the US for earthquakes. There was one there in 1811 that rang church bells in DC....that's pretty amazing!! I'm certainly surprised! Well, just an interesting tidbit....it's back to my reading for me! post comment

[02 Oct 2003|09:33pm] [ mood | sleepy ] So....I'm sort of back, we'll see how long it lasts this time. Dropped modern physics, and have decided that I'm definitely switching to a Geology major! :) It's so very happy!! Anyway, a little more relaxed now, though still trying to catch up and stay that way. Also got a new car! It's happy, and nice and moves, and isn't rusted, doesn't break every time I try to turn it on! :) My Geology book had some interesting tidbits that I wanted to share, though....like it's description of the histroy of earth in relation to the calendar year: "On January 1, Earth was formed. During January and part of early February, Earth became organized into core, mantle, and crust. About February 21, life evolved. During all of spring, summer, and early fall, Earth evolved continents and ocean basins something like those of today, and plate tectonics became active. On October 25, at the beginning of the Cambrian period, complex organisms, including those with shells, arrived. On December 7 reptiles evolved, and on Christmas Day the dinosaurs became extinct. Modern humans, Homo sapiens, appeared on the scene at 11:00 P.M. on New Year's Eve, and the last glacial age ended at 11:58:45 P.M. Three-hundreths of a second before midnight, Columbus landed on a West Indian island. And a few thousandths of a second ago, you were born." It's certainly an interesting bit, and really puts some things into perspective. Then there's another interesting fact.... The average movement of the San Andreas fault, over the past several million years was about 5cm/year. If that rate continues, Los Angeles, on the Pacific Plate, will be contiguous with (Connected to, next to) San Francisco, on the North American Plate, in about 10 million years. I can just see somebody sitting on their porch in LA. "No, dear, I'm going to visit our relatives in San Fran." "But you're not going anywhere!!" "Oh, I'll be there in about 10 million years...." :) Well.....I think it's time for a new To-Do List.... Read Geology chapter 11 Read Geology chapter 19 Read Geology chapter 21 Read Electronics chapter 2 Read Mechanics chapter 3 Finish Astronomy homework, look over notes Wow! That's actually it!! Yay for dropping Modern! :) 1 comment|post comment

[12 Sep 2003|11:53am] Mom and I were going to go out to look at cars today, since we've decided it's not worth fixing the other now. It'd be far too much...grrr....but....no! We're not going until Monday. Monday when I'm going to be freaking about exams, since I have two next week, or whatever else has come up....and I'm certain that won't result in anything which will mean at least another week of dealing with the stupid switching of cars, and worrying about everyone having transportation, and leaving Mortir at home all day while I'm in my 7 hrs. of class each day Tue, Wed, and Thur. Blarg! I hate this. And....I still have all the things on the old to do list plus a number of things I didn't know I had to do until today. I want a car so I can go to Asheville! Or anywhere else for that matter.... 3 comments|post comment

GYAH!!! [10 Sep 2003|08:54pm] [ mood | frustrated ] [ music | None, unfortunately... ] Mew!! I'm stuck here at the library working on the stupid physics hmwk that isn't getting done!!! And, despite the study group, we've been here 3 1/2 hrs. and we're not even done with half of it!! Blarg....mew. Ick!!! I just want to be done and go home, but have to stay and finish. Stupid numbers! Stupid homework! Grrr!!!! *cries* 1 comment|post comment

Don't die of shock!! [08 Sep 2003|05:25pm] [ mood | busy ] [ music | random techno ] Yes, I'm actually posting....please don't die of shock, it's a pain to ressurrect people.... So, I've been busy as all hell. We actually did manage to get together for the week after far too much stress of trying to put it together. It was much much fun!! My car has been in and out of the shop since I got back, though....mostly in. The place we've had to take it is taking forever. They've had it three days, and don't even have an estimate! Mew.....*hates cars* So....I thought I'd try posting a To-Do list....it might actually help with the huge amounts of reading I have to do. To-Do list DONE!!!! 4 comments|post comment

[06 Aug 2003|01:10am] [ mood | Frustrated and Depressed ] [ music | Epicentre; VNV Nation ] Here's the deal for the week. Anyone who wants to come to TN is welcome. I'm going to the gathering. Leaving on Friday, and driving down. If Anna and/or Liz want to come with me, they have to find a way back, but I'm willing to drive them down. In other words, Anna if you want to come, you should probably go ahead and buy the bus ticket. I know Jen has decided not to come. I know that Karen will be unable to. I unfortunately, don't have the time to work it all out now, as I have far too much to do, like a test that is much percent of my grade day after tomorrow, that I need to do extraordinarily well on. And, I need to work out my departure plans with my RA so I don't get charged an extra $25 for "not checking out on time". Grrr.....I'm going to go read HP now....which I still haven't finished. 5 comments|post comment

[01 Apr 2003|08:21pm] [ mood | stressed ] [ music | Epicentre by VNV Nation ] And I'll say it again....I need to write in here more... I finished another round of tests today. Did well on the last one, which was Medieval Civ. I know even though I haven't gotten it back yet....but it's Medieval Civ. Unfortunately, I didn't do so well on the others...in fact, I failed every one. It sucks. Fortunately, I know why, and I'll have more time to study for the last ones. More time that I'm actually awake and able to understand what I read. My job is going away. In four days, I will be job free!! :) I'm so very happy! There's no current update on my evil plan, except that Ogino Sensei wants to interview me on my language skills...I can see this is going to simply be bad...very bad...Oh, well....hopefully, I'll be able to look it all over first. I am so far behind on everything. I have to mail a package to my aunt and uncle....from Christmas...and I have to send a letter to my dad...from a couple months ago. I'm much farther behind on my schoolwork than I've ever wanted to be, and sleep? Forget it...I want time...I want time away from here. Time to catch up with everything, and not be worried and stressed about it all. Time to focus and time to be myself. Blech....it's evil, but I'll just have to hold on. I'll survive. I always do... 1 comment|post comment

[06 Mar 2003|09:15pm] [ mood | annoyed ] I have the oddest complaint...but then it is a complaint about my parents, and nothing about them is normal. I find that whenever I try to do my school work, or practice my music, or anything like that, not in my room, I have problems doing it. Why? Because of my parents. They're not bugging me to do it, they're preventing me from doing it! If it's not one whting it's another. Help put this in the truck, help with moving that thing over there, no reading in the up til now quiet living room, because the TV's going on, no practicing piano, because they're asleep, or watching TV, or listening to music, or...any number of other things that keep me from getting my work done! As if I didn't have enough trouble with it anyway! Does this seem odd to anyone else? It does to me.... Well, that's my gripe about my parents...which I don't usually have one, so I guess it's good...and not at the same time. I really need to get out of here and be on my own! Grrr...so much to learn and not wanting to spend the time to do it....Ah, well. Eventually, I will be out of UT, hopefully only another year and a half. post comment

[23 Feb 2003|09:18pm] [ mood | blah ] This class is going to drive me nuts. I can't stand the stupid programs they want us to write! Blarg! Well, I'll be happy if I can pass with a C. A C in C.... :) It's not a big deal, and I'll never ever use the information. Stupid class. Ah, well. So, in between my random bouts of programming, because I really hate it....I took another vamp quiz. Thank you, Liz! :) Tzimisce. Ah, the fiends. Sculpters of flesh, hair, bone, and just about anything else that the canvas of a human (or not-so-human) body has to offer. A guest who is invited is pampered beyond belief by an uncannily polite and gracious host. Those uninvited are unfortunate to meet that particular Tzimisce's more.. creative ..side. Usual Sect: Sabbat What Kind of Vampire Would You Be? (Completed Version, sorry guys) brought to you by Quizilla Interesting...but as Liz pointed out, they are magic users, too....I don't think the quiz had the Tremere as an option. Why do people hate them so much? Eh, better to have magic and be hated than not and be adored.... *Tremerey type grin* Well, I guess it's back to the programming....yay...so not thrilled. post comment

[19 Feb 2003|08:35pm] [ mood | cheerful ] [ music | "Fearless" -- VNV Nation ] I really need to write in here more often....which is something I always say. Well, maybe I will actually do so this time, or maybe not...but, we'll see. I've been going nuts with schoolwork, but I think I've got everything worked out to my satisfaction now. I've dropped Educational Psychology....it sucked, muchly, and I think I'd rather teach at the college level anyway. So, I've got plans to finish my physics major and Astronomy minor as quickly as possible, and I think I have it worked out that, assuming classes fit right, I can complete it all in another year and a half!! :) Then I'd have a semester and a summer free to go wherever, and then I could start grad school!! So much happiness! I've been looking into schools already. I've sent off for info from Arizona State, and I've been looking at UC Berkeley, and UWashington, Seattle. I'm not certain of where else would be good. I want to be somewhere with a good Astronomy department. I think I can also get an internship somewhere during the summer after this one. So much goodness! It all makes me feel a million times better! Yay! I also think I've got a good game going with some of the people down here. I only hope that we can keep it going for a bit. I've only run one session so far, and I already have a name for the group of characters. They're the Unlikely Four...and they are! A child Giovanni, a Tremere, and two Lhiannan (one is a Haitian who could be out of the Psychic Friends network, and one is an ancient Mayan priestess)...and it is modern day....I know Lhiannan aren't supposed to exist, but previous games saved them in my world. So :P. Well, it's back to my homework....but Oh, so much less of it! Yay! No Ed. Psych. reading!!! Going to work on my physics lab report now. :) post comment

[31 Jan 2003|02:47pm] All right.....one more....No surprise here, either. Welcome to Slytherin! Your Hogwarts House (Harry Potter) brought to you by Quizilla post comment

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